This was written completely hammered. The sheer number of typos, grammar mistakes, incoherent rambling, and spelling errors made, deleted, and corrected were staggering. Don't let that deter you from reading this, however. There are still several very valid points and observations peppered within. I actually did put a lot of thought into this, despite the circumstances.
For me to say that I know all the answers and claim that what I say is an unquestionable fact would make me as foolhardy and arrogant as the so called religions of the world. What I say is nothing more then theory, take with you what you will, leave behind all that benefit you not.
Spiritual signs and things that happen in concurrence with how you feel. These are things that happen with what is happening that affects you deeply emotionally. Instances such as songs playing that fit your mood, TV episodes that fit your day to the T, and other odd occurrences that could be attributed to coincidence but are none the less unlikely. Is this the occurrence of "God", some random energy mass, or is there any explanation at all that is more than a mere farfetched grasp at a meaningful answer/existence?.
Typically, things like this occur during times of high emotion. Most see more of it during their teens and early 20's. Perhaps, due to the emotional and hormonal overload that youths often have. You can think of dozens of these off hand, I'm sure. The significance and reoccurrence of this can only be achieved by either being highly emotional or possibly prayer. Is there really that much of a difference?
Prayer is usually brought on by most human beings when they've been thrust into a highly psychologically stressful situation. Those intense feelings may, in fact, be the catalyst to a type of mental or high frequency energy output that can affect things around you in a "butterfly effect" manner. Basically, the essence of quantum physics applied to mental energy having a significance or real energy mass that, in turn, affects other objects energy and has a domino effect, multiplying this and affecting happenings around you in variable but often appropriate means.
As cheesy as a lot of this sounds, it does explain (and contradict) karma. Large negative energy vibrating off your surroundings attracts more negative energy and visa versa with positive energy. How this theory kills the karma concept, however, is that if an individual commits atrocities, without remorse and without anyone catching them, they will not feel a negative energy backlash. With this theory, only those that have hurt others, feel remorse, and have harsh feelings directed towards them have any karmic repercussions. Those that act in stealth and can kill undetected are immune to karmic backlash. Isn't that the way a lot of wars are won?
So, is there any intellectual presence within this "God" like energy has or is it simply blind energy interacting and causing "divine" retribution and salvation? I'm beginning to wonder. Maybe the mad DO have powers. By way of their overdeveloped/chaotic sensitivity and emotions. Ever have a friend that's completely bonkers and unexplainable shit happens when your around them? Same difference.
Is the truth of spirituality or "divine influence" is that it exists, but it is just as blind and unforgiving as nature? Does it just as easily devour the weak like a lion feeding on an antelope? By my quantum energy theory, yes it is and yes it does. Strength begets more strength, weakness begets further travesties. It's an unfair endless animalistic cycle.
So, from this theory, there is a God. It simply has no logic and smites who the hell ever. Typically the misfortunate. And the opportunistic, uncouth individuals of the world simply strive and succeed to be more powerful. Unless they have remorse. Only the truly wicked can ever rise to the top and the humble are preordained to crumble at the wrath of their own conscience.
Energy has mass that is equal to the emotion that created it, also it has momentum and inertia that can propel it through prolonged periods of time equal to that. This type of energy is not governed by space on a planetary scale, as far as I can tell. That is why someone's mom can die in China and someone in Canada can feel it. That energy is fully encompassing on a global scale and has a near instant response do to that. All are 1. One are all. That's some basic hippy shit there, but it ties into the energy theory.
God is a collection of all the energy and emotions outputted by all living things capable of this. God is as divine, wicked, intellectual, animalistic, artistic, or as void as the masses that create it. We are all God. I think that Jesus said that in the Bible somewhere. That's all a fairy tale but there is some validity in many fables and lessons to be learned. Remember the one about the boy that cried wolf? That didn't happen, that I know of, but still makes a good point.
FYI, in case you're wondering, the meaning of life is simply "to live". Nothing fancy, no bells and whistles. No fantastic surprise ending. What you see is what you get. Well, as far as life is concerned anyway, I'm not dead last time I checked, so I can't give you a play by play on the epilogue of this mind numbingly long and cruel story. Not that anyone else can, for that matter. Last time I checked the Bible wasn't written by zombies or vampires. Though, from some of the crap that is in there, that wouldn't be a surprisingly different book. The book of Rob. (Yeah, you know you loved that White Zombie joke, damn it!)
All religions that bear any result are simply another means to the same end. The Hindu, Jew, Christian, or Wiccan are all individuals that seek guidance in shape or form of a higher deity. None of them are right. None of them are wrong. What you seek is universal. It matters not your name but your cause. We all want to be a part of something that is bigger then us. Why are you fighting your own people? That is all holy wars are. Different religions are basically the same words written in a different language, long ago spoken, and distorted over time. Once again, sometimes there is no right or wrong. It is merely perception.
Prayer, spells, meditation, and curses, these are all simply another form of releasing your energy. They are all basically the same thing. Your energy has significance. Be it small, a pebble cast into the ocean may one day become a tsunami. There is a reaction to every action. Why should your feelings be any different? Believe it or not, your thoughts ARE things. You have them, don't you? They are there. They have weight. They have potential. They shape who you are and who you may become. A small drift of snow running down a mountain can often engulf all that is around it, increase is velocity, and become an avalanche. Our feelings of anger can avalanche into rage, then into hatred, then into our undoing, surrounding and encompassing your entire being and life. Love, hate, pleasure, and pain, these are all energy. Energy is a thing. It is real. It has a presence that can make or break everything.
Is there a guiding force out there? Could it be that the energy mass we know as "God",or whatever your religion dictates, does in fact have a consciousness? Have you ever felt like you were compelled to do or say something at a certain time and, unknowingly, evaded catastrophe? Could this be your spirit guide, dead friends and family, or your higher self? Maybe, assuming we're part of this larger force, a part of us is higher evolved then we know.
If we are indeed a part of a vast energy force, wouldn't that vast collection of souls and knowledge be more then you could comprehend? It is called your "higher power" in some beliefs. A force that is part of you, but you cannot control. Something that makes you omnipotent and an individual at the same time. Possibly, all our true insight comes from this "higher power" because, after all, we are really nothing but animals.
It was been proven that the human body loses weight after death. Energy can last possibly forever. Certainly, we are more then mere objects or we wouldn't have thought, as unevolved as it may be. I'm sure many of you have had experiences with "ghosts" or other phenomenon.
Are ghosts or wayward spirits beings that could not accept being part of a whole? Could they simply not let go of their individual selves and past agony? Would this not further prove the point that we are all subconsciously a part of a much larger being?
If you are an artist, musician, or novelist maybe you would have experienced a certain inspiration. You lose track of your self and start writing or playing things that you didn't think you were capable of. Suddenly, your mundane progression of musical scales becomes an original song that you wanted to write, just didn't know how. Perhaps, the article or story you're writing takes such an interesting twist, but you don't know how you came up with it. The essence of life is creativity. That is simply tapping into what you truly are, cannot comprehend, but is always there.
I realize some of what I say contradicts itself. That isn't always a bad thing. With uncertainty, there are questions, and without questions, we can never find the true answers. Very little in this world is certain. We simply perceive it that way. That can be applied to many things. Just because we perceive the ground as flat, does that mean the Earth is? There are different factors in many things that we see and feel. Sometimes to get a better grasp of the truth you simply have to step outside of your self and look at things from a different view. Often the same question has many different answers. If different people from all around the world were asked what color the sky was right now, they would say several different things. But they would all be correct.
I renounce religion because of what it is, not what it teaches. It is nothing but an outdated collection of stories that justify nothing but to teach a lesson. That lesson has been contorted through the vast years and often lost in translation. You must learn to comprehend the meaning of these stories and not take them literally. They are, mostly, the greatest truths and lies both, at the same time.
Science has proven that there is evolution. Whether you want to be part of it or not, Darwin's Law will catch up to you. "God", for lack of a better term, changes as we do. It evolves. Everything evolves. The higher being in us all is screaming for change. If we continue this way, we are all doomed. That is part of natural selection on a much larger scale. There is still so much potential in each of us that we could easily surpass that of even our wildest dreams. But, to do that, we must learn from our past, not cling on to it, and surpass it. That is why religion is outdated.